30 days in my Toms® – Beautiful to Thee

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You know the saying that talks about walking a mile in someone’s shoes? Well I want to invite you on a journey to experience some of the craziness that goes on in my world. I want to invite you to experience some of the the powerful lessons I am learning, the effect those lessons have on my struggles and to get a glimpse into my dreams, visions and big circle prayers. And Toms® are my favorite shoes so it only makes sense! 

Today’s blog has been written for several days now, but my hesitancy to share it stems from a very painful struggle I battle daily. Beauty. My struggle with self esteem has defined me for so long that it has created a wall that separates me from my Creator. As I have begun to pray for deliverance from a very negative perception of myself, I have been given a holy glimpse of beauty through the eyes of the Creator of beauty. If you have ever felt unbeautiful, this message is for you.

Day 1~ Beautiful To Thee

When I was a little girl I was in love with the sky. Clouds were a playground for my imagination, stars carried away my wishes and taught me to dream, and sunsets completely captivated me. As women, we are naturally drawn to beauty. We notice it, we admire it and we model it. Beauty is captivating. And so much of our worth is put into those three simple words, you are beautiful. 

 One definition of beauty is something that is pleasing to the eye. When I am told that I am beautiful, it touches my heart in a way words rarely can. If I, an imperfect person with a life stained with mistakes could be considered beautiful, how much more worthy of this title is our God. 

While worshipping this week, I was reminded that God is a God of power, fairness, justice, omnipotence and love. He is a God of mercy, forgiveness and grace. But He is also a God of beauty. As women, we have a unique understanding of beauty. We respect and long for beauty that is pure, genuine and real- yet we also intimately understand the abuse and obsession that makes beauty an impossible attainment. We have all been touched by beauty and have mourned for it. When I watch something that is beautiful be torn down or destroyed it breaks my heart. So how much more does it break the heart of God?

    Not only is God a God of beauty- He is it’s creator. And beauty is not an achievement, it is a gift that we are born with. Let’s face it, it’s hard to see ourselves as beautiful. We spend much of our lives chasing after that which we have been told to believe will make us beautiful. Expensive clothes, makeup, spankx, photoshop, diets, eating disorders, plastic surgeries. We have all been guilty of a few of these- at the very least we have all wished away fat, compared ourselves to another woman and have created ideas in our minds of how we want to look.  Although we may feel like these details are minor, every second we spend obsessing about how beautiful we are not, we are breaking the heart of God because God sees in us what He created- beauty. 

I am convinced that children hear the whispers of God in a unique and powerful way. They don’t yet question or fight the truth, they simply believe. Every little girl has heard and at one time believed God’s promise that they are beautiful. Just watch little girls as they twirl, dance and play. There is a sparkle in their eye that never disappears regardless of the clothes they are wearing, the state their hair is in or the shape of their bodies. Nothing changes as we get older. God still whispers those words to us, you are beautiful. It is up to us to listen for His voice and then to choose whether or not to believe Him.

ImageWhy does He put so much effort into reminding us of this when we hardly ever listen? Because He is captivated by us. The God of the universe who created the clouds, the stars, and each and every sunset , is captivated by you

“Listen to me, O royal daughter; take to heart what I say. Forget your people and your family far away. For your royal husband delights in your beauty; honor him, for he is your lord.” Psalm 45:10-11 NLT

It does not matter what the world sees or thinks. You are beautiful in God’s eyes because He did not create imperfections and flaws. He created man and woman in His own image (Genesis 1:27) and then He looked upon his creation and He saw that it was good. (Genesis 1:31). 

Do you believe Him? 

As I write this, I am incredibly convicted. I don’t believe this on a daily basis. It’s a mental battle for me to believe this truth. This past year I have chosen to pursue a healthy lifestyle. Losing weight and working out is a struggle because I tend to obsess- not eating enough and working out too much. I make every excuse in the book as to why I did not meet my calorie count for the day- but the bottom line is, I have created a definition of what beauty should look like, and when I fall short of that, I feel everything but beautiful.

God did not intend for me to live life this way. He has purposed me for greater things of which I cannot focus on when I am too busy feeling unbeautiful and never good enough. 

“Then God looked over all he had made, and he saw that it was very good.” Genesis 1:31

You are good enough. 
You are captivating.
You are beautiful. 

May you begin to listen to His whispers again.

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One thought on “30 days in my Toms® – Beautiful to Thee

  1. Jenn Taylor says:

    This is beautiful, Holly. Thank you for speaking to the hearts of many women, including me. Love you!

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